That day you look in the mirror and feel lonely and unwanted. You are caught up in your own selfish thinking and can't seem to shake it. The thought of not being included in that girl’s night out or you totally just recognized your close friend didn't invite you over for dinner, but another friend got an invite. You sit in that uneasy feeling of pity and feeling left out yet again.
Why does it even matter? Why does it consume you so much when you wouldn't have gone anyway? You would've made all the excuses to why you didn't want to go and would’ve caused anxiety to set in for even thinking about it. Not only that you probably really want to be home curled up on your comfortable sofa watching a movie. Especially since you had a jammed pack week with work, taking the kids to practices or just exhausted from not getting enough sleep with so much on your mind.
Having a seat at the table, doesn't always mean you know how it looks, and you always know the person seated next to you.
That seat sometimes means sitting with new people, meeting someone at the coffee shop that you don’t even know and letting them vent and tell you their whole life story.
A seat at the table sometimes means sitting alone, until God brings the right tribe to sit with you.
A seat at the table sometimes means it’s just you and God, discussing how you need to be more present with him.
A seat at the table sometimes means you need to walk out of your comfort zone, and travel alone and next next to a stranger on the plane and share the love of God with her.
Sometimes a seat at the table means inviting the right people into your home and loving them well.
Sometimes a seat at the table means you are the one that supposed to be hosting.
You have to be reminded you are not alone, you aren’t the only one that feels left out, you aren’t the only one struggling, you aren’t the only one feeling lost and defeated, and you also have to recognize that God may be calling you to raise up and set the table, and be that movement of LIGHT for him.
Be the movement that leads people to the table and stop always waiting for the invite.
Luke 14:8-10
8 “When someone invites you to a wedding feast, do not take the place of honor, for a person more distinguished than you may have been invited. 9 If so, the host who invited both of you will come and say to you, ‘Give this person your seat.’ Then, humiliated, you will have to take the least important place. 10 But when you are invited, take the lowest place, so that when your host comes, he will say to you, ‘Friend, move up to a better place.’ Then you will be honored in the presence of all the other guests.
XOXO,
NYCIA